Happy Holidays

We spent some time with each side of B's family this past weekend. I got to play "show-off-the-ring". pretty fun. His mom, dad, brother and grandmother all made daughter comments. :) We had dinner with my mom last night. Mom and Becca are super excited and are both concerned about finding a date. Ha! I am so tired as we didn't get home until midnight and I had to open the store this morning. Long day to be over at 2:00.
Good news: he picked a date, and I won't be 30 yet! We are getting hitched Oct 21st, 2006. Not even a year. We'll be married next Christmas! next Halloween! Yikes! I had a minor panic attack yesterday. I think it finally started to sink in: the whole married thing. He takes good care of me. We're going to be okay.

I am not planning yet...

I spent 4 hours looking at dresses online last night. I got my nails done today in preperation for everyone looking at my ring. Trying to convince B for an Oct date rather than an Apr date. Avoided an argument over who's paying for the wedding with my mother. *whew* Called a few friends. Asked my sister to stand in the wedding. got an offer for a photographer and a reference for a florist. Tried really hard not to tell B all of the "non" planning I've been "not" doing.
I have never had dreams of a fairy tale wedding. I'm not sure where this is all coming from. Personally, I am very afraid. I wasn't stressing about Christmas with his family. It's easy to blend in and relax with them. Now, I'm not so sure about the blending-in part. *sigh* Here we go!

Guess What?!

I'm engaged!
weird, huh? i was beginning to think i'd be single forever.
B proposed yesterday. The ring is beautiful. He is tickled with himself, because I was so surprised. I assumed he'd wait until he was finished with school; I was looking for a summer engagement. I'm still a bit in shock, I think. I'm not planning anything until after the first of the year. Bridal shows start in January. I invited B's mom to go with me and my mom. She has 3 boys and no other potential daughter-in-laws. It will be fun. I'm feeling a bit stressed. eek!
wearing this ring is driving me crazy. I'm not used to wearing a ring on this finger and it itches. double eek!

I used to be a writer...

I have a binder. it is full of writing dating back to a time when i used to write every day. edited journals, poems, good lines. sometimes i flip thought the pages and wander back through the memories that accompany them. sometimes i think about writing again. is an author someone who writes or someone who is read? Alot of the pieces revolve around beginnings and endings. not very many inbetween times. most of the poems revolve around extreme emotions. the most recent addition to the binder is two years old, shortly before B and I started dating. It is my favorite piece, probably due to the fact I haven't reread it a million times in a vain attempt to figure out where all my words have gone.

don't let it snow!

got a bit of the white death last night. the drive home was awful, but the city did a great job of plowing before i had to be to work this morning. just a few tricky spots. i made it through alive, yet again.
Another friday, another show. B plays at my favorite venue tonight. I should be more excited, but it's been a long week and i'm feeling quite drained. he even promised to be the D.D. i'm too tired to get too crazy. i must be getting too old to rock and roll. i'm not even tring to look cute. *pout*
gotta run. need to eat and attempt to rock out.